i don't think that you should have done what you did, whatever your reason, whoever you did it to..

sometimes, you think of what people did and you try, cracking your mind in the process, to find a reason why they did it, and you think to yourself, "why the heck did they actually do it?" sometimes people don't make sense.. sometimes i don't make sense.. i guess the only one who TRULY understands is th person making the decision him/herself.. just cause i'm a friend, don't think i'll back your decisions.. i'm fiercely protective of my opinions and if i don't think that you should have done what you did, i'll tell it right to your face.. even if you're a friend.. a true friend is one who tells you that you have greens stuck in your teeth, is one who tells you that you're face is getting more pimply and you should do something about it, is one who tells you that the way you style your is ugly, you get my gist.. i'll be a true friend..

that aside, though most readers would not get what the freaking fuck i'm talking about, i wanna say something.. i hate pop-ups.. ok that's random cause a pop-up actually popped up, but back to what i wanna say today.. what did i wanna say??

oh ya.. today was the worst day of work ever.. i was flooded with work and it doesn't help that i have had to "split myself into two" and balance that with dry-runs of the competition which i'm involved in..(i was chosen as emcee.... don't laugh..) but it helped that i found inspiration and actually pulled thru the dry-runs.. haha.. sometimes, thinking about occasions with different people gets you outta stress, and taking the persona of someone else really helps.. heh... somehow, presenting and getting ready made my day.. but the day of reckoning would be tmr.. haha.. wish me all the best!!(i don't believe in luck, though it struck me a few times this month...)

i will volunteer... i will involve myself in anything that promotes me.. i will get at least a silver for IPPT.. i will achieve my outstanding grade for ns.. i will continue my "alternate day" running routines around my neighbourhood.. i'll keep myself fit.. i'll maintain my BMI.. i will not let myself slip into a downward spiral of laziness and "unfit-ness".. i will not use my work as an excuse not to exercise.. i will not ask my parents for money unless i really need it.. i will help my mom clean up the house this Saturday, as i don't believe that work is a valid excuse to neglect this place i call home.. i will save more money.. i will make sure i keep the 100 my friend owes me in my money box.. i will find inspiration to take ns day-by-day till i ORD.. i will make sure i'll strive to achieve all my targets.. i will catch the movies i wanna catch, whoever its with, even if i must watch it alone.. i will spend more time with Asyraf, whom i've not seen for a long time.. i will spend more time with my cousins as they have reached "going-out" age, and i don't want them to mix witht the wrong people.. i will take note of their birthdays too.. i will be less fiercely protective of my opinions.. i will argue mush and listen more..

all this God-willing..