i guess i'm the only one with a free mind..

didn't want people to hear aussie talk whilst reading, so i linked the video..

amazing how people can seem so happy, but in reality, be so sad at the same time.. wasn't that long ago i last saw you smile.. 5 or 6 months may seem long, but it felt like yesterday.. maybe cause you're memorable.. i'm sighing now..

also amazing is how moods can swing so damned fast.. we're behind you zul, but we don't know what to do.. okay, not don't know, but we don't know if you want us to do what we feel like doing.. sighing again..

i have no problems.. but somehow, i tend to think of, and can't help but getting involved in, the problems of others.. trying not to get involved in yours.. i'd play pretend.. i don't know.. hope i don't turn into another scowfield..

and i don't wanna expect too.. i hate expecting.. if replies are nothing but one-liners, so be it.. a few words are better than nothing at all..

sometimes, i feel bad being happy and un-stressed, when people are having problems.. when i care, and want to help, i don't know how.. perhaps that's my problem.. i don't know..

right now, i don't know why, but i feel like i'm under a shade of melancholy.. its not effecting me directly, but its just rubbing off.. maybe its the pay-delay.. haha.. that was a smal kick.. heh..

honestly, i prefer being angry than feeling melancholy.. anger gives you a drive, a need to prove wrong, a want to do something..sadness just tires you to sleep.. or doing stupid stuff.. whatever.. i'll pretend..

i love anger.. i hate pain.. but i love inflicting it..