i guess i'm the only one with a free mind..

didn't want people to hear aussie talk whilst reading, so i linked the video..

amazing how people can seem so happy, but in reality, be so sad at the same time.. wasn't that long ago i last saw you smile.. 5 or 6 months may seem long, but it felt like yesterday.. maybe cause you're memorable.. i'm sighing now..

also amazing is how moods can swing so damned fast.. we're behind you zul, but we don't know what to do.. okay, not don't know, but we don't know if you want us to do what we feel like doing.. sighing again..

i have no problems.. but somehow, i tend to think of, and can't help but getting involved in, the problems of others.. trying not to get involved in yours.. i'd play pretend.. i don't know.. hope i don't turn into another scowfield..

and i don't wanna expect too.. i hate expecting.. if replies are nothing but one-liners, so be it.. a few words are better than nothing at all..

sometimes, i feel bad being happy and un-stressed, when people are having problems.. when i care, and want to help, i don't know how.. perhaps that's my problem.. i don't know..

right now, i don't know why, but i feel like i'm under a shade of melancholy.. its not effecting me directly, but its just rubbing off.. maybe its the pay-delay.. haha.. that was a smal kick.. heh..

honestly, i prefer being angry than feeling melancholy.. anger gives you a drive, a need to prove wrong, a want to do something..sadness just tires you to sleep.. or doing stupid stuff.. whatever.. i'll pretend..

i love anger.. i hate pain.. but i love inflicting it..

grouper..

i found this site called grouper.com.. they have a cool main page where you choose your vids like at a buffet.. Youtube bombards you with videos, but grouper is more category-specific.. Its like you click a category and the most frequent appears at a very user-friendly glance..(not saying that Youtube doesn't have this feature..)

so there i went, checking the site out.. i can so imagine myself, if you can call the internet an actual place, window shopping at this free shop called Grouper, looking around for videos, when suddenly this shelf(which is a sub-category in actual website terms), at the shop, called Aussie slang, caught my eye.. i wouldn't give two hoots bout Aussie slang to be honest, but something really caught my eye.. Why don't you guys check it out for yourselves, ya?? Here's the video..

Aussie Slang Girl

i was like whoa!! and i thought jessica alba was hot.. haha.. well, that was your intro to grouper.. i somehow always think about perpectives, how there are two sides to the coin.. okay, mayb that not your intro, cause you'd probably already knew of the existence of the website, and you don't need this dumbass here to "intro" you to any shit, cause you're probably more "web-savvy"then i am... I'm getting pissed for no reason.. spot-on shaz.. haha.. i get it.. haha..

well, today's the last day as a free man before i return to ns camplife.. then its just two more months to P.O.P.! yeah, can't wait for more free time and a more meaningful, but tiring existence.. so enjoy grouper.com and enjoy life.. peace out!!

You-tube, Me-tube.

dudes and dudettes, letme introduce you to this insane and awesome drummer..
The Faceless, drummer, Nick Pierce-



Well, my attachment is over and I'm watching soccer and You-tube.. Don't shut it down!!