killing spree..

my nose is seriously blocked, and i have a game tomorrow.. shit..

went out with asyraf today.. my friends since nursery.. many, many memories, remembered and revisited.. we can talk about everything under the sun, even at night.. haha.. i'm lame.. anyways, i remembered this conversation we had in primary 1..

asyraf: fan, i think until i die, i'd be friends with you...
irfan: i don't want to die with you..

i think what shaz said, and has been saying is right.. i may be a little too pragmatic after all.. maybe too pragmatic for my own good.. i can't halp it.. i think alot.. especially about stuff like, making sure i don't say the wrong words just so that i don't have to "take my words back", not making myself "lose face" if i said i would do something but end up procrastinating and not doing it.. shit like that.. but that's the way i was raised.. thought to, be careful, always have your guard up, its a dog-eat-dog world, your experiences and achievements speak for themself, plan properly.. no one can change me but myself.. maybe i should loosed up a little..

and we watched FLYBOYS today.. nice show.. had one of my favourite actors, James Franco.. oh, and his love interest is beautiful.. heh.. dont't know the acteress' name.. the scenes where the old WWI fighter planes battling each other in mid-air was simply fabulous!! amazing.. but somehow, i thought, it was rather fake.. CGI these days, anything can be fantastic..

lepak-ed at some cafe, near my old place.. somehow the topic changed to favourite movies.. somehow, Edward Norton came up, American History X, Fight Club, in that order.. and it made me want to put up the rules of Fight Club, one of my favourite movies..

The Rules of Fight Club
1st RULE: You do not talk about FIGHT CLUB.
2nd RULE: You DO NOT talk about FIGHT CLUB.
3rd RULE: If someone says "stop" or goes limp, taps out the fight is over.
4th RULE: Only two guys to a fight.
5th RULE: One fight at a time.
6th RULE: No shirts, no shoes.
7th RULE: Fights will go on as long as they have to.
8th RULE: If this is your first night at FIGHT CLUB, you HAVE to fight.

somehow, Jarhead came up, Jake Gyllenhal, Heath Ledger, then Brokeback Mountain, in that order.. then i read this question somewhere.. "What do you think of gay marriages?"

my answer:
i don't know what to think anymore.. if you posed me this question a year or half a year ago, i would say that i detest even the idea of gay couples.. according to the traditional and orthodox view, this is simply against nature, against the whole notion of Adam and Eve, against the fact that there is a law of nature, even in animals where mating is necessary to procreate.. gay marriages is a mockery of all things natural and from the orthodox standpoint, they are definitely against it.. but am i?? i still don't know.. if the question was, "do you have a problem watching a man and another man make out?", that i would answer yes.. phew.. that was easier.. but gay liberation groups have argued that the main religions have prohibited gay lust expressively, but not gay love.. you can't deny that.. ok, fan, cut all the bullcrap and get to your standpoint.. taking a religious view, i do not condone gay marriages.. i'm a firm believer of when there's love, there comes lust.. so, since gay lust is a no-no, so is gay love.. taking my own couldn't care less view.. so long as you don't disturb me, i don't care.. haha.

12 days

min has screamed at me all the way for urbana-chamPAGNE to update, and i will not let her screams go to waste..

i went thru OBS at ubin for twelve days, so i went "missing" from the mainland. the most important thing i learnt from OBS; the limits of the human body are actually, but contradictarily(tell me if there's such a word), limitless.. i'll explain.. we ran 2.4km every morning at 5.55am, on almost all the mornings of the course. more or less, 6 out of the 12 days.. we had an kayaking expedition within the OBS course, kayaking to Pulau Hantu and back to Ubin.. for the sake of the people who don't know, P.Hantu is just beyond Sentosa, beyond Sister's Island, and contrary to its name, P.Hantu is less haunted then Sister's Island.. haha.. all in all, here's the distance we clocked:
- 24.4km running in 6 days, including a 10km on the last day..(ok, i know some people running marathons would say its nothing, but serious, it WAS tiring)
- 120km, on kayak in the Singapore seas, including with and against the tides
- endless kilometres hiking on foot
- 200% heart

Limitless. All i can say. Truly, the impossible is nothing.. no, actually, the impossible, is only what you call it.

So, after OBS, back to studies.. my CriminalInvestigations test is on monday, and i know shit, or no shit.. watever.. haha..i guess i'll study tomorrow..

I can't wait!!! POP-ing from Home Team Academy on 11th January. getting my inspector rank, or otherwise called by me, bling bling.. haha. and i really hope, life would be better after that.. going home everyday.. the travelling might kill me, but i'm already dead from being a trainee for 1 BLOODY YEAR..

Oh God, i'm almost completing my first year of NS.. i feel ORD-ing before your 20th b'day is really, really cool..